So Long Insecurity...yep I've been reading that book for a month now and yes I'm about half way thru...because you know I am a SLOW reader.
But wow...I think I have highlighted so much. I have heard from everyone who has read or is reading this book that they feel Beth wrote it specifically for them....ME TOO!! I would like to talk about a few roots that I have buried so deep in my insecurities...beware...I think I need to rent a backhoe.
I think I might have found my deepest root...Pride. Yes...being Prideful...pretty sure I am full of it.
See...I try to fix things...fix situations...fix people...I truly have a passion for helping others thru things. I didn't use to...I was scared too. But as a PW I have learned that people naturally come to you for answers and expect you to have the them. Yikes!! ME...insecurity sets in! But I can't tell you how many times God tells me...stop trying to fix something that insists on staying broken. You can't fix it...only God can...but we have to allow him too. But wait...that's my job GOD...yep...PRIDE!
I am learning that I put a lot of stock in relationships...which eventually there are blowouts. "In our pursuit of GOD vested security, the only relationships in your life that will suffer rather than improve are the significantly unhealthy ones. Those that are unhealthiest might not even survive at all-and maybe they shouldn't." When a relationship ends...it could quite possibly be for our best. That is hard for me, I don't like relationships to end...I want to be liked. Why? Simply put...PRIDE. God knows what's best for me...listen to HIM. Relationships are good...we need them...but when they become unhealthy...we need to realize it's time to let them go.
Fear of Rejection...how many of us struggle with that? I have went thru times when I have been rejected and I can fall into self pity mode. No one likes me...I'm not worth fighting for...wanting..loving...keeping..but GOD says
I have chosen you & have not rejected you. So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your GOD. Isaiah 41:9-10.
These are just a few issues that GOD is revealing in this book that I have my fingers tightly wrapped around & I need to pry my little fingers loose and let go of them. Will I do it overnight...NO...will I struggle...YES! But I will call on HIM when I feel these issues taking over my JOY & my life in HIM. I need to stop looking for myself in man and look for myself in GOD.
"God uses change to change us."
Have you read this book? Do you struggle with Insecurity?