So Long Insecurity...yep I've been reading that book for a month now and yes I'm about half way thru...because you know I am a SLOW reader.
But wow...I think I have highlighted so much. I have heard from everyone who has read or is reading this book that they feel Beth wrote it specifically for them....ME TOO!! I would like to talk about a few roots that I have buried so deep in my insecurities...beware...I think I need to rent a backhoe.
I think I might have found my deepest root...Pride. Yes...being Prideful...pretty sure I am full of it.
See...I try to fix things...fix situations...fix people...I truly have a passion for helping others thru things. I didn't use to...I was scared too. But as a PW I have learned that people naturally come to you for answers and expect you to have the them. Yikes!! ME...insecurity sets in! But I can't tell you how many times God tells me...stop trying to fix something that insists on staying broken. You can't fix it...only God can...but we have to allow him too. But wait...that's my job GOD...yep...PRIDE!
I am learning that I put a lot of stock in relationships...which eventually there are blowouts. "In our pursuit of GOD vested security, the only relationships in your life that will suffer rather than improve are the significantly unhealthy ones. Those that are unhealthiest might not even survive at all-and maybe they shouldn't." When a relationship ends...it could quite possibly be for our best. That is hard for me, I don't like relationships to end...I want to be liked. Why? Simply put...PRIDE. God knows what's best for me...listen to HIM. Relationships are good...we need them...but when they become unhealthy...we need to realize it's time to let them go.
Fear of Rejection...how many of us struggle with that? I have went thru times when I have been rejected and I can fall into self pity mode. No one likes me...I'm not worth fighting for...wanting..loving...keeping..but GOD says
I have chosen you & have not rejected you. So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your GOD. Isaiah 41:9-10.
These are just a few issues that GOD is revealing in this book that I have my fingers tightly wrapped around & I need to pry my little fingers loose and let go of them. Will I do it overnight...NO...will I struggle...YES! But I will call on HIM when I feel these issues taking over my JOY & my life in HIM. I need to stop looking for myself in man and look for myself in GOD.
"God uses change to change us."
Have you read this book? Do you struggle with Insecurity?
and also remember that just because you think it is broken, doesn't mean it is
ReplyDeleteOuch, Ouch, Ouch. That went all over me and you know I am an avid reader and not commenter but had to say those two areas I have struggled with so much the last two years and still have not conquered them. Gonna buy that book and read it although I am still trying to get through Crazy Love. Slow reader also. Question -- now that you realize the areas, what is your plan to improve?????
ReplyDeleteVery true anonymous..but what I was referring to is when people come to me with issues, things they feel they need advice on. I am not one to force my advice on people unless they ask or seek it.
ReplyDeleteAs I said...it's an insecurity I'm dealing with...Pride...letting Him have it. :)
tracy...I have found some scripture that I say to myself in this book when I find myself going in this direction. I so struggle with so much in this book that has had a hold on my life. I am really trying to make an effort in overcoming fear...disappointment...control...and mostly pride. Let's do coffee or something soon. It would be easier to chat than write it all. GO GET THE BOOK!!! Thanks my friend for being so transparent & encouraging!!
ReplyDeleteI love the quote.."God uses change to change us." Ummm, yea, I would say from experience right now in my life and our ministry God has grown and stretched me greatly!!!
ReplyDeleteI haven't read the book but I know it would be an amazing read. Insecurity is what breathes into a woman's soul on so many different levels.
*hey, just finished You Can still Wear Cute Shoes....such a good read!*** :)
Just read your bio and could so relate. I am a minister's wife too, one that grew up as a preacher's kid and so did not want to marry back into the fishbowl world of ministry. however, God had other plans and here I am VERY HAPPY. He does know best.
ReplyDeleteAnyway, loved your post today. Nice meeting you. You have a beautiful family.
being anonymous is over rated.
ReplyDeleteSteph, Thank you for this post! I need to know that I'm not the only one that struggles!! I think if we looked up the word "insecure" in the dictionary, we would find my picture! Really!! Maybe I should read this book....fearing it may hurt though!
ReplyDeleteI remember seeing this book and will have to add this one to my must reads. Not that I am struggling with insecurity, I think for me, I struggle with times of it every now and then.
ReplyDeleteLove and Hugs ~ Kat
I would love to read this book, it looks amazing! I have struggled with insecurity for years and never realised it. Now that I have worked through it and have found freedom I am amazing at how controlling it was. Insecurity is nasty isn't it and so difficult to break free from. Thanks so much for writing about this.
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Angela
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