Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Saying Goodbye

I haven't felt much like blogging this week...I have just been to sad to chat...

We said Good bye to our sweet Maggie tonight. She has just went downhill all week. I prayed that God would show me a sign if putting her to sleep was the right thing...and I said...if she doesn't eat anything today again...we will know. Well, she didn't eat a drop...she would barely get off the couch. Even when she saw the kids...she just laid there. Matt and I haven't agonized over something in so long. Our hearts were completely broken to think of having to do this. But we knew as the day went was the right choice. She was in so much pain, her little bones where getting weak.

So let me just tell you why we loved this dog so much...she had a personality that everyone loved. She was so sweet and gentle. When you would go outside she would run from where ever she was...and stop right at your feet. We called her the cat dog...because she would rub up against your legs like a cat does. We all swear that she smiled. She would look up at you and it looked like she was smiling at you! Maggie was a smart dog. My daughter Lauren trained her to walk on beams, walk over a ladder and many other tricks. Lauren adored this dog and Maggie loved Lauren. Wherever Lauren was...Maggie was. They were really best friends. She loved water, she would jump in her little pool and swim all around. She was protective...anytime someone was around...she would let us know. She had a way of just making you feel loved in her 2 short years.

When we told our son Jaden took it the hardest. I don't think I have ever seen him cry so hard...he was weeping out loud. It broke my heart. I was shocked he took it the hardest, but being younger, I don't think he quite understood how sick she was and it took him by surprise. After we told them...I heard him out with Maggie's puppies telling them "We need to have a family meeting" with all the puppies jumping at him...and he told the puppies Maggie was sick...I didn't hear the whole conversation...but what a good heart that boy has! Lauren knew Maggie didn't feel good and she knew it was coming. Brooke is so sad also...I think she is trying to be brave. I have to tell has been a hard week. Very emotional...I have begged and pleaded with God to save her, but it was just not part of his plan. I have heard the sweetest prayers from my kids this week as they laid their hands on her and prayed for healing. And that is what he did...he healed her...she is running around Heaven playing. We will see that sweet dog again someday. I don't know how you feel about dogs and heaven...but for this family...we believe they will be there waiting to play with us!

One thing that has been on my mind thru all of this is...some where in a hospital sits a the bedside of a sick child. She is praying for healing...praying for peace. I can't imagine being in that position. I know Maggie was just a dog and we loved her. But thank you Jesus for healthy kids. God is so good to us. We have plans to get a new puppy already. I will post about that sometime later. It's a blessing from someone!

Thank you all for your prayers and words of encouragement during this time of sorrow for my family. YOu are all a blessing in my life. Please pray my kids hearts can heal soon.


  1. I had a dream about Maggie last night. She was this HUGE dog like a mastiff, and Grace was huge like that too. And, the puppies were so cute and you were looking at all of them trying to find the blondest one to keep. Oh, and we lived in Bermuda.

  2. Steph,

    Last night I couldn't sleep and I hadn't read this post til now but wanted you to know I was praying for you and yours ALOT! SOO sorry you had to say goodbye to your sweet Maggie!! I am with you ~ knowing she will be waiting on you all to play one day in Paradise!

  3. I am so sorry and I ache for you all because of this. Please know I am praying for things that will bring smiles to your kids faces and just relief from the sadness. I hate it for you!!

  4. So Sorry Steph! I know this is soooo hard and emotionally a huge heart break. I did this just 2 years ago to my Buster Brown whom I had 15 years. It was one of the hardest things I've had to do in my adult life. He was such a huge part of our family and had done so much life with us. I know you feel the same with your Maggie. Its so different when they are not there. I pray for comfort in these next hard days. Hugs.

  5. Steph,

    your blog shows just how hard it is to be a parent... at least a caring and involved parent. But your kids will always remember how you and matt agonized over this, just like they did. It will be a big point of reference for thier lives... including them in it, and shepherding them through it is one of the most important things parents can do.

    You both are great parents...who love their Kids and each other. Lauren, Brooke, and Jaden are super blessed..

  6. Oh Steph! This post made me cry!!! I am so sorry. We feel the same way about our dogs. Do you remember our bulldog Rufus? We had to put him down three weeks before Christmas a couple of years ago and it was terrible, so I know exactly how you feel. Molly loved Rufus so much and would lay on him like a pillow. She was devastated, probably like Lauren is right now. Hang in there. :(

  7. I am sorry about Maggie! Praying for lots of peace and comfort for you all!


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