That's what I would like to tell people sometimes when they are talking to me at church and telling me things going on in their lives. Sometimes I come home so burdened for their heartaches they are going thru that it gets me so down. For some reason people assume since you are a pastors wife you know how to solve all their problems...sorry...I can't...especially when I can't always handle what's going on in my life. Only God can. I give them a hug and pray for them and I think really that's all they want...someone to listen and show them love. There are days when I question why God called me to be a pastor's wife when I feel like I am such a mess really. Ask anyone who really knows me. I try to be as real as I can with people...sometimes this turns people away from the church and from a friendship with me. I'm not always a good wife, a fun mom...I yell...I get mad...I just plain do things that aren't right in some peoples eyes. I feel like I need to wear a sign that says...beware...being my friend can be dangerous to your perspective of church if you think I'm perfect...you will be disappointed. Only God is perfect and I am so thankful that His Grace covers me and that He sees something in me that I don't always see in myself. I try each day to wake up and ask the Holy Spirit...lead my steps today...use me to bring Glory to the Kingdom not myself.
I am so thankful people feel like they can share their life struggles with me...I really am. I know God put me where I am because there is no other logical explanation! I am thankful for my bible study, small group ladies and other PW's that I can share things with and they lift me up in prayer and share verses with me that fill me up. So remember be who you are...people want to know you struggle...and they are there to pray for you.
Beware...I'm a mess...and that's ok...God's working on cleaning me up. Anyone seen the mop? :)